behaving badly

6 Jan

I know this is wrong. very wrong. I keep a dislike with a group of good people, good friends, and good teachers. They are smart, diligent prayer, and good to anyone. However, there is a blemish that until now I can not forget them. This incident is very long, about two years ago. I feel hurt every time I remember it. Unfortunately, today their  actions remind me of that-sad-incident. Whereas, I think that would be a valuable experience that I was never going to forget for my entire life.

This article was troubled. I somehow remembered that past events. In fact, it’s really past events! Then why do I still chained to the past? I actually did not want to remember. However rather than throw it away, I even write the turmoil it here. Perhaps, I just wanted to share the sadness, but no one in particular. I share sadness for no apparent reason. Not fair, huh? Yes, I’m not a wise man. So, if you are not pleased with this article, please leave this blog.

There is something wrong with me. Supposedly, I should not have feelings of dislike in others. Even if there are people I do not like,  they should not deserve to be liked. Maybe this is called envy. O Lord, save me from all envy and jealousy. Even though I have striving for, I really want to give up these things with sincerity.

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